I'm so thirsty for God. I know i need HIm, i know that He is hte only thing that will get me through this. NOw it's time for me to ACT on my thoughts...follow through with what i beleive.

I'm happy today. I never know if i'm going to be happy or sad... i can't tell... I know that i wont get by without God in my life. I can't live without Him.

I talked to Taylor about Christ today. He said that he's a Christian, but he just smokes pot. I dont understand it. Well, i guess i do. He convinces himself he can smoke pot and still be a Christian. It's just like, well, myself. I know i shoudln't eat all the food i do, but i eat it anyway. I put it ahead of CHrist in my life. I am certainly no better. I have to remember that...so i dont get haughty about this. I love him so much...and i just want him to have the freedom in Christ that i have. But what kind of freedom is it that you choose to return to time after time?