You'll never guess what happened to me.

Jarred.... told me that he's going to bring one of his friends with us. Ok...well, thats alright with me i guess. I mean, it wouldn't be quite the date it would have been with someone tagging along... But it would still be alright. THEN, he tells me that he's found this chick from another town that he really likes and wants to bring. He asks me, nicely, if that would be ok.

Oh my GOSH.

I said it would be ok, although id ont know why i said it. Probably becuase i'm scared to stand up for myself.

What a JERK! I told him that. I told him that i wanted him to be real and not to be two different people around everyone that he's around. I didn't sayt hat i hated him, becuase i dont... But i did tell him that if he doens't get to know himself...who he is...that he will keep screwing up his life and the lives of people around him.

And THAT,

my friends,

is why i think relationships in high school are stupid! At least, for me. THey only bring me down. Everyone is trying to find themselves in high school...; they dont realize that it is impossible to find themselves through substances and/or peers/girlfriends/boyfriends.

I haven't seen him yet today. But when i do, i'll tell him that i've found another ride. Which i haven't yet, but it wont be that hard. I'm sure any one of my friends would take me.

Anyway. Aside from jarred... (You may not hear anything more about him in this diary) Everythings going alright. My friends boyfriend got another girl pregenet, and she's pissed. Everyone gets pregenet here. 10% of the girls in this high school already have kids or are going to have them. It's very sad.

Tahts all i have to say today! Today is a good day. Annie and i screamed in the car on the way to school... J ust to see if anyone would look at us.