Hey, ya'll... I'm down in good ole' Texas right now, still. I'm having a good time. Right now i'm in school... woohoo!!! it's going great, i'm making a bunch of friends and having the time of my life being a real teenager... REALLY living life instead of just existing, like i was in my eating disorder.

I've realized how much of a revolutionary power my God is. He has completely changed my life around. I am eternally grateful for the purpose He has given me..... I now have a REASON to exist and a REASON to have hope.

There is a boy-his name is Jarred. I like him alot... and, of course, he likes me too. I am a love addict, and i dont really know what to do about it. I mean, i know i shouldnt' go to that drive in with him on Saturday.... especially since i'm not allowed to date at this treatment center. But he's so attractive... Wait, lets get down to the true and dirty. The reaosn i like him is becuase he likes me. I dont really like JARRED, i like the fact that he wants me. I fall for guys too easily, then i lose parts of my heart to them. It's a replaying scene over and over again in my head.

Dres, where are you? I tried calling you a few times..... I miss you, and i fear that you've committed suicide.

Em, whats up, darlin'? I should be updating this often (i am a library aide first period and i spend all my time online) so leave me notes on here cuz i can't check my email.

Stef, where are YOU? I haven't heard from you in such a long tiem... I miss you... :( :(