I'm eating celery. It's gotta be the best stuff in the world. I mean, it's virtually calorie free, and i heard somewhere that you burn more calories eating it than you gain by consuming it! Who can hate a food with such radiant qualities?

Today is a better day, although i'm not sure why. I found out that i wont be able to graduate from high school next year. This sucks monkey's balls...horses balls, AND disgruntled mail men's balls.

Is my pain real? At times i think it is, but other times i dont think so. It's too horrible to be real. Why does anything have to be real anyway? WHAT IS REAL? These are the things it hink about on the toilet. What is real? What is fake? There has to be more out there than just what we can see. I guess that settles it. Science is a religion.

Can science 'prove' emotions?

Hey, my life could suck more. I could be pregenet. I dont even know how to spell it.

Last night i had a dream. ("I have a dream!") It was about our nation becoming one, blacks being treated as whites, all men being created equal! No, actually, my dream wasn't about that. It was about eating. I dreamed i spent the night at a gas station, and i bought all kinds of carbohydrate-saturated food from them. I spent all the money i had. I just ate and ate and ate and ate some more. When i woke up... I was full. I woke up just in time for lunch with my family... and i hated the mere thought of having to eat something. After all, hadn't i just binged hours earlier? Of course, it was just a dream. But it seemed so real.

Maybe there is hope for me. People keep talking about God and about how much He loves me... Oh my, i'm about ready to break. I hold all of my pain inside, i've been doing it for so long... And one of these days i'm just going to burst. I hope He's there to catch my pieces.